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2014-07-16 07:21 pm
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RE: Longing For Some Peace Of Mind

It seems feeling stressed and overworked was in fact the reason why I was so unproductive and depressed.

Last week, we were told that the payroll would be really tight, so our hours would be cut. This week, I only have two days of work, and they have already passed. The moment they were done and over with, I become insanely productive.

I stayed up yesterday night because I was roleplaying with a friend and I drank too much green tea (green tea has caffeine). Despite being sleep deprived, I greeted my father (He gets up way earlier than I normally do), drove him to work, got myself some breakfast (a rare occurrence), went food shopping to get back on my diet that I have shirked for weeks (When I'm off it, I get depressed and unproductive way more often). When I got home, I got to work cleaning my room, brought my little brother's bed frame back into his room (We needed it in my room because relatives stayed over some weeks ago and we hadn't bothered to put things back until now), got to doing my laundry. I finally hit the sack after the caffeine wore off. And now? I'm about to finish work on Chapter 5 of Midnight Sun.

I really needed this.
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2014-07-12 10:37 pm
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Annoying Fans

I'm not a popular Youtuber. However, four-thousand subs is still a fairly big fan base. What's nice about it is that sometimes you meet interesting fans that treat you with respect and sincerity. When I come across these fans, I often become fast friends with them. Perhaps because most of them are adults (according to my Youtube analytics), most of my fans seem pretty well put together.

Something that has fueled my dislike of teenagers however - besides a very troublesome childhood, and a teenager's terrible taste and tendency to conform rather than deviate - is that most of the annoying, entitled, disingenuous fans that randomly add me on Skype are around 13 - 15 years old. These whiny little brats are the worst.

Despite my anxieties and dislike of people, I have a lot of patience. To give an example, sometimes a fan will ask for help with Fire Emblem hacking, I will personally add them on Skype and teach them through screen sharing and mic chat.

However, I've met enough fans that I can figure out when they are the type to put me on a pedestal rather than treat me like an actual human being. The friendship they allegedly try to form between us always progresses in the same way. The conversations are one-sided, and any comments they make are praise and worship. After the first talk, they rarely speak to me again. Sometimes, they will only start conversations just so I can help them learn Fire Emblem hacking, even when I have created numerous tutorials and integrated a brand new section to my website dedicated to learning and obtaining the tools for Fire Emblem hacking. And you know what? I get sick of it. Eventually I lose my patience and size them up for the brown nosing phony they are and this always happens: "I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to make you feel so angry with me! I know you don't like it when people praise you, but you are like a god to me! Please forgive me!"

From there, I have pretty much confirmed that we will never see each other as equals, and give up.
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2014-07-12 07:45 pm
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Fire Emblem's Archer Problem

It doesn't take a lot of thought to realize that Archers and Snipers are the worst class in Fire Emblem. Anything they do is done better by any other class. Their primary gimmick is that they attack from a space away instead of up close, allowing them to avoid counter attacks from enemies. However, this trait becomes useless when hand axes, javelins, and magic are introduced to not only allow other classes to attack from a range, but also attack up close at the same time, preventing them from leaving themselves open. The other use archers have is that their weapon, bows, is strong against flying units. Okay, that's nice. Except one thing, Pegasus Riders already have poor durability, and when weighed down by their weapons, even the Fighter class is capable of doubling them. Wyvern Riders on the other hand are already weak to magic, so what's the point?

FE13 seems to have completely forgotten that Archers even exist; the combat system so heavily favors wiping the enemy out on enemy phase with 1-2 range weapons that it takes serious favoritism just so your archer can even keep up with the rest of the team.

However, there is still hope for the Archer class. After playing DLuna's Sword of Seals Redux, Fire Emblem 3: Mystery of the Emblem, and Midnight Sun I came to realize numerous ways to help out our melee-challenged friends.

Shooting for balance )
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2014-07-09 09:28 pm
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Thinking About Making An Album

I've been composing music for years, and what surprises me is how much I've developed and improved. Gone is the frequent use of basic chord progressions and - as EvilEggoWaffle describes it - "Knight's Tale" stylings, and in are time signatures, tempo changes, polyphonies, and other fancy music tricks that I've learned from listening to progressive rock and classical music. I think I can make a good album out of my ideas. It's just a matter of figuring out what I want to do.

Thinking time! One last call for... uh... something )
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2014-07-09 08:19 pm
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Longing For Some Peace Of Mind

I recorded Chapter 5 of Midnight Sun nearly a week ago, and yet it took today for me to finally start editing it. It's not like I've been doing much else with my week besides working, so why did it take so long?

I spoke with my friend Alfred Kamon - creator of Midnight Sun - and he says that perhaps the reason why I haven't been productive is because I'm always stressed out. Sounds about right.

Crazy women, bills, and anxiety )

Hopefully this will all change soon. I recently applied to Costco. I have over a year's worth of experience at this discount store, with managers that are supportive and like me, so I believe my chances at getting this job are pretty high. Not gonna hold my breath though.

Additionally, I plan to get out of my current Youtube Partnership in favor of one that appears to be a lot better, but I have to wait for my current contract to end. That happens in about one more year. When that happens, I'll at least be making more money on my channel. Nothing to live off of, but anything helps.

Mm... I'm sure this will all pass at some point. Maybe next week will be better.
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2014-07-06 01:58 pm
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Tales of Misanthropy

Working at a discount store isn't too bad. The pay is garbage, but the demands placed on you are simple. Bring customer-misplaced items to their appropriate area in the store, bring the boxes left by the big truck to the correct area in the stock room, restock items in the front, keep the store clean and tidy, help customers find things, ring up customers at the register. Easy peasy, right?

One problem. The job will make you hate humanity.

In this store, I have met some of the most arrogant, selfish, insecure, impatient, cheap, and oblivious people I have ever seen. My childhood and teenage years had quite a bit of trauma that resulted in my misanthropy, but as those fires started to dim with age, this place came in with some new logs.

Four Kinds Of Jerks )
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2014-07-01 02:35 am
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How To Make Good Level Design In Your Fire Emblem Hack #1: Pacing

Years and years of talking about Fire Emblem design, and I have yet to make an actual document on it. The closest I've ever gotten was a thread on Serenes Forest, but it's not organized enough for my tastes.

So what do I look for in FE hack level design? I think the most important thing is pacing.

Timing, predicting, and arranging the experience )
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2014-07-01 12:55 am
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My Progressive Rock Album Tier List

A couple of years ago, when I was 22 (I think), I began buying albums, starting with Bat out of Hell by Meat Loaf. Ever since then, I've built up quite a collection. Every now and then, I rate the songs I listen to in Windows Media Player in order to see what average rating the album ends up getting. It's quite fun!

Anyway, I figure just for the hell of it, I'll make a tier list for my Progressive Rock albums. Why only Progressive Rock? Cause that's mostly what I listen to, and there's only a few non-prog albums in my collection that I listen to consistently AND whose songs I have rated.

MarkyJoe's Prog Tier List )
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2014-07-01 12:24 am

My Mission Statement

It's very difficult to get me to talk unless as a reply to something, but I have a lot of opinions, and I want to share them. That is why I made this blog.

Most of this blog will be to talk about my opinions on Fire Emblem, Fire Emblem hacks (particularly their level design), Progressive Rock, possibly Touhou, and whatever else comes to my mind that doesn't involve information about my family that will make them angry with me.

This will also be where I shall put my old "blog" posts that I would normally put on my forums.

I'd also like to mention that reading Mark Asphodel's blog was partially what inspired me to do this. Go check her blog out. It's got a lot of insights about Fire Emblem's writing.